1996-11, 어둠속의 성

1996 쓰여진 11번째 시, a castle in the dark

11th poem written by Sooyoung Kim, 1996

저기 저기

어…저기..저 시커먼 곳은 어딜까

악..소름 끼쳐  

온통 어둠 뿐이네

아..저기 저기 성이 보여

아둠 속에 성이 있어

저 새는 무얼까

저 새들은 왜 저렇게

눈을 뜨자 그 성은 없어져 버렸네.

손을 대자 그 성은 흩어져 버렸어.

그 성을 찾아

헤맸네

하지만 찾을 수 없었어

이 곳엔 

어둠이라고는 눈곱만큼도 없었거든

난 그 어둠이 궁금했어

너무도 궁금했지

내가 모르는 그 곳이 

너무도 궁금해서

견딜 수 없었어

난 그곳이 어디있는지

그 곳이 어디 있는지

찾아 헤맸지

하지만 

난 눈을 떴고

이제야

난 알게 되었네

내가 그 곳에 

내 한 다리를 

디디고 서 있음을

Over there

uh…there… where is that black sight?

Oh…it’s creepy  

There’s only darkness

Ah… I see a castle over there.

There is a castle in the dark

What are those birds?

Why are those birds like that?

When I opened my eyes, the castle was gone.

As soon as I touched it, the castle fell apart.

I wandered to

find that castle

I wandered

But I couldn’t find it.

In this place 

There wasn’t even the slightest hint of darkness.

I was curious about that darkness

I was so curious

That place I don’t know 

I’m so curious

I couldn’t bear it

I don’t know where it is

Where is that place

I searched for it

but 

I opened my eyes

Now

I found out

I’m standing

my one leg on the darkness

Oasis

I enrolled in one English Class at MiraCosta College, California, in the USA, for the first time in my life. My teachers’ name is Donna Fazio DiBenedetto. I just had 2 units, but I feel already, I am learning quite a good quality of English reading and writing class. Last week, we read “In Los Angeles, a Garden Oasis.” Written by Stella Kalinina, and we wrote our essays. 

 “In Los Angeles, a Garden Oasis is “a physical and spiritual recovery zone, a cooperative and multi-cultural zone, and the Garden Oasis connects humans to humans, community, generations, and nature.” While reading, I think hard about where my comfort zone and my soul nourishment oasis are. Here California has community gardens all around, and when we visit the library, we can easily get the information. The below is my assay which I wrote for the class but a little bit modified for my blog. 

So far, my physical and spiritual recovery and conforming zone is in my hometown, where I grew up. To say more specifically, my oasis is my mother’s food, my parents’ garden, and their support. When I need help, I visit them, and I recover physically and spiritually.  

I grew up in a small city named Chuncheon in South Korea. Chuncheon has rivers, ponds, and mountains all around. My parents have a large garden that has fine trees,  flowers, and fruit trees. Almost all the trees are older than me because my dad planted most of them with his dad, my grandfather. I had a rabbit, chickens, and dogs when I was young in the garden. My parents sometimes planted peppers, eggplants, lettuces, and peas. Among my three siblings, I was the best garden lover and helped to remove weeds and shape trees. The garden had chives as well, so I could eat chive pancakes at any time. 

To study after high school, I moved to Seoul, the biggest city in South Korea where my college was located, and I lived around Korea University from 1994 to 2010, before I came to the USA. I am just realizing that I have not stayed at any one place for over 20 years so far. If I live a long time in one place, my comfort zone might change, but at this moment, my comfort zone is still my hometown. When I had to stop studying at college due to tuberculosis sickness, I returned to Chuncheon. One thing that I enjoyed was harvesting peas and removing weeds while listening to music in the garden. At that time, I liked a song of  Squre’s Dream. Another thing I enjoyed was walking outside and riding buses without destinations. When I had my second baby in the USA, I missed my hometown, flowers, and mountains. I missed even the color of the sky that I saw in Korea. Korea has its own plants and flowers such as Jindallae (Korean rosebay), Gaenali (forsythia), and Cosmos (kosmea), and a clean blue sky in autumn like here in California. California has the same type of Cosmos flowers as those found in Korea, but it was hard for me to see Cosmos flowers when I lived in Maryland, Eastern USA. When I heard a music piece named Spring in My Hometown, Gohyang-uibom, I was gloomy, sad and teary. My husband and I wanted to save money and did not often visit Korea. Actually, we had not visited Korea for 7 years straight. When I quit working my second job in the USA, I finally visited Korea with my two daughters, and I regretted that I should have visited my parents more often. None of us can catch or stop time. Our parents will not wait for us forever if we do not visit them. During the COVID pandemics from 2020 to 2021, I stayed in Korea with my second daughter, helping my parents, while still working for a living for my family and them, which was hard but gave me infinite strength. After COVID, my family moved to California from Maryland because my husband and I had new jobs here. However, a job at a small biotech company was not stable, and when the company closed my center, I lost my job. This time, I do not feel weak, but I feel that I have to visit my hometown and see my parents, and others. 

Now, I know my physical and spiritual Oasis is still my parents, my old home where I grew up, but  somehow, I feel I started having another Oasis here in California. I dream of staying at one place, in California for a long time, and feel that my family is another of my Oasis. 

54 동전양면/ Two sides of a coin

다른 이를

이해 할 수 있다 해도

이해라는 말 속에서

옳고 그름을 버려서는 안 되요

하지만 옳고 그름은 동전 양면일지도 몰라요

삶은 모두 허용할지 몰라요

Two sides of a coin

Someone else who you can understand

In the word of understanding

You must not abandon right and wrong.

However, right and wrong seem be two sides of the same coin

Life will allow it both, maybe

52 감사기도 / Thanksgiving

무언가 그대의 것이 될때, 

그대가 무엇인 가를 이루었을 때

감사 기도부터 하세요

충분히 감사한 연 후에나 

그것을 온전히 즐길 수 있어요.

When something becomes yours, 

When you achieve something

Start by praying thanks

After giving enough thanks 

You can fully enjoy it.

50 돌봄 / Take care

올바름과 그름

나쁨과 좋음이란 선입견 아래

자신의 감정을 속박하지 말아요

자신의 감정에 솔직해야 해요

자신의 마음 돌보는 일은 중요해요

Right and wrong

Under the preconceptions

Don’t bind your feelings

You have to be honest about your feelings

It’s important to take care of your own mind

Molecular work 02: Cloning and sub-cloning, vectors

Since 2000, I generated quite a numbers of plasmids inserted with GOI (gene of interest).

During my master’s course,

The first project of cloning was to generate the human CD1d molecule-inserted plasmid that will be expressed in mammalian cells and set up high-expressed CD1d NKT.

Another cloning project was making a reference vector that has several cytokine fragments for PCRs for expression comparison among different cytokines. 

During my Ph.D. course, 

My project included generating quite a lot of in situ probes. I generated probe vectors that usually work for several species—rats, mice, and humans—even though I used them for only rat tissues.

Another project was to generate mammalian cell expression vectors for gene expression studies in cells and animals. Our group used liporfectamine, electroporation, and lentivirus for the functional studies in vitro and in vivo. I also generated siRNA fragments and dominant negative vectors to knock down gene expression. To generate antibodies, the first step I did was also to generate several different bacterial expression vectors that cover the pan, extracellular domain, and each isoform’s part.

Another project was to generate different promoter fragment-expressed vectors for luciferase assays. I generated a lot of mutagenetized promoter fragment vectors to find which promoter regions are critical.

During my post-doc stages, from time to time, whenever I felt like I needed something, I added vectors in need.

I switched from siRNA fragments to the shRNA lenti vector system and/or the Crisper/Cas9 system to knockdown or knockout genes.

I do not know when synthesized nucleotides started supporting cloning procedures. around 2010, we still used synthesized nucleotide fragments primarily for PCR probes, siRNA fragments, or mutagenesis fragments, but around 2020, I started ordering long-length synthesized fragments. That method really supports codon optimization as well.

Nowadays, people, including me, use SnapGene and other software to generate vector maps, but in 2000, I remember that we used MacVector. In or before 2000, the reason that laboratories had Macs was to use MacVector and FACS analysis software.

For cloning,

  1. Choose the proper vectors and check the vector maps.
  2. If you need to change or update the vector backbone, plan together.
  3. Design the final vector and set up cloning strategies.
  4. Order synthesized fragments and prepare backbone fragments, and other fragments needed.
  5. Anneal, select, screen, and confirm the sequences.

Which one is your choice: Snapgene vs. MacVector?

They are almost the same; just use the one that the company or academic lab provides!! I used MacVector, but recently I used Sanpgene. I feel they are similar without a big difference.

Which one is your choice: IDT vs. ThermoFisher or Life Technologies Gene Art for Synthesized Fragments?

You could check other companies as well, like mine, but the best choice was Life Technologies for me and my projects.

Sometimes, some fragments and others fail, but Thermo Gene Art almost succeeded.

When comparing IDT and Fisher, Fisher supports highly difficult nucleotides.

For codon optimization, please check different companies, including IDT, ThermoFisher, Nvoprolabs, etc. For the best optimization, your company might want its own program.

Which kits are yours to assemble several fragments?

NEB HiFi DNA Assembly vs. GeneArt Seamless, Gibson HiFi, EX, etc.

Generally, NEB HiFi could be comfortable with room-temperature reactions and fine up to 12 fragments.

GeneArt EX assembles up to 15 fragments.

Up to 6 to 7 fragments, both of them worked very well in my tubes.

Just check the manual and test them! 

For mutagenesis, the most common method is to just use PCR using fragments; I never used commercial mutagenesis kits. There are no reasons to use them.

Maybe you heard about T vector cloning. I think there is no reason to use T vector cloning system any more, but a long time ago, in or before 2000, we made a T vector system in the lab just using a PCR machine, a blunt-ended vector, and dTTP. Within 2 hours, we could make a T vector backbone for the next step. 

Who believes that in the old days of laboratories, we generated lab-made taqs, lab-made pfu, lab-made Lama phage DNA ladders, and more for our own experiments? Who believes we made PCR buffers as well!!

If you need consider Patent application for your design or GOI for your team and your company, you might use Patsnap

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